** Sweet Memories.. Saturday, 25th June 2011 .. Good bye Baskoro.. I am sorry.. I can't be yours anymore :)
Love... What is love? Its meaning and its hope???.. I don't know. I only know that love is a sacrifice. Really? Maybe I am lying.. Hmm. 5 years is not a short time. Many things happened. Cried, happiness, loneliness, sadness, being ignored,,,etc.. Many people still blame me.. They said I am 'a son of a bitch'.. Hurting their friend..HOW COULD I DO THIS??? They don't know the truth..they DONT KNOW.. they dont know what i feel, what i want, what i need, and what I love..
Even Himself.. Oh God.. I don't want to cry anymore..
Remember this makes myself such a worthless diisgusting old woman..
I realize how big my sin, my responsibility to myself, my parents and my family..
I AM JUST SUCH A FOOL AFTER ALL...
Stupid.. FUCK MYSELF.. I hate being myself... How could i do this to myself???
Hmm.. but i am free now.. i can release all of this.. no pain anymore..but.. i cant still forgive myself for this sin..
God.. please help me.. Forget this.. I just wanna start a new life.. without this nightmare..
