God help me...

i dont know what i have to do...today i lost a friend.yeah although i didnt know him well..but a friend is an important part in my life.....
i think his name is not important
i did a big mistaken
he doesnt know anything about me
he just blame on me..me and me

i want to cry if i can

i want to .....i dont know..suddenly iam speechless

God,,you know me,,u know everything about me,,,
im not a poet..who can arrange beautiful words to pray..

arrrrgggggggg....it makes me too stupid
.God help me to solve this problem.........aaaaaaaaallllllllllllllll and aaallllll


i want to go home...but they will not smile to me
smile for pride of course.....
i just a looser...i never make them proud of me........
God give me a chance ..please...for nextweek.....not only a chance but also a miracle from u...i want to show to them that i can
I CAN..!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN DO MY BEST
I CAN DO IT by myself....